It's a confusing little life...

A lil thingie

2005-09-20T22:58:20Z

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Traci N. Wolfe
Birthday:	2.9.82
Birthplace:	Charleston, WV
Current Location:	Duluth, GA
Eye Color:	Brownish Greenish
Hair Color:	As of right now it's a burgandy-redish color
Height:	5'1
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right
Your Heritage:
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Black sandals
Your Weakness:
Your Fears:
Your Perfect Pizza:	Peperoni, banana peppers, black olives, and onions
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	WTFE (What the fuck ever)
Thoughts First Waking Up:	Oh my gosh! What time is it? What am I gonna wear? Do I really have to get up? FUCK!!
Your Best Physical Feature:	Smile
Your Bedtime:	depends
Your Most Missed Memory:	Hanging out with a certain somebody
Pepsi or Coke:	Pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Burger King
Single or Group Dates:	Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Coffee
Do you Smoke:	Yes
Do you Swear:	Like a sailor
Do you Sing:	Only when I'm by myself.
Do you Shower Daily:	sometimes twice
Have you Been in Love:	Yes
Do you want to go to College:	Yes
Do you want to get Married:	Yes
Do you belive in yourself:	Yes
Do you get Motion Sickness:	No
Do you think you are Attractive:	sometimes
Are you a Health Freak:	hell no
Do you get along with your Parents:	sometimes
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Yes & No...I get startled at the thunder and lightening but I love the rain
Do you play an Instrument:	No
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	Yes
In the past month have you Smoked:	Yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	No
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	Yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	Not a WHOLE box
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	No but I really really want to
In the past month have you been on Stage:	No
In the past month have you been Dumped:	No...well...not really dumped persay...
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	No
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	No
Ever been Drunk:	Yes
Ever been called a Tease:	Once or twice
Ever been Beaten up:	No
Ever Shoplifted:	Yes
How do you want to Die:
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	I don't wanna grow up I'm a Toys 'R' Us Kid...
What country would you most like to Visit:
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	Green...but this one guy I dated said that his eyes were silver and they were to die for!
Favourite Hair Color:	Dark
Short or Long Hair:	short
Height:	anything taller than me...
Weight:	Ummm...doesn't REALLY matter...
Best Clothing Style:	Baggy...I hate fitted clothes on guys!
Number of Drugs I have taken:	5
Number of CDs I own:	200 something
Number of Piercings:	4
Number of Tattoos:	3
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	I'd rather not think about it...I try to put the past behind me.
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Kinda Full Update...

2005-07-20T16:37:44Z

I’m going to start from the top. As some of you might know, I lost my job in the beginning of January. I had been with this company for almost 5 years. Another company bought us out and my position was one of the lucky ones pulled out of a hat to be eliminated! That really sucked! It messed up EVERYTHING! I had just gotten an apartment and started to live on my own just about a month before that. I was living with Nicole. Of course me losing my job really put stress on me causing my attitude to change for the worse. Nicole and I started drifting more and more apart. Needless to say, we ended up in a huge argument at one point and we both agreed that it would be best if she moved out. 2 weeks after she moved out my best friend, Tasha, moved in. At first, things were going wonderful! As they always do. As time went on, and I still was unemployed, me and Tasha started fighting more and more. It got almost to the point that she wanted to move out and I wanted her to move out. Things are still just a little rocky between the two of us. But, I am sure we can get through this. Things just change, I guess, when you move in with someone. I wasn’t aware of these changes. I thought that she would move in and we would still be just like best friends. But, it is/was almost like we are roommates that never knew one another and are trying to do so. I’m not saying that in a bad way either. It’s not just one persons fault (well we each think it’s the others fault heheheh) it’s the both of us. We just have to adjust to seeing each other every single day! But, I must say, that things are getting better. As of right now we have 2 guys living with us. It’s crazy! One is a really good friend of ours (ex of mine as well), Michael. I’m not even telling that whole story. The other one is a new friend of ours that we have met. His name is Jon. HOTTIE!! He’s so cute and so funny! He always makes me laugh. I’m not sure how long either of these two will be staying with us. But they are no trouble so it doesn’t matter.

I finally got a job!! Yep! Fidelity, formerly known as InterCept, hired me back. They called me approximately 2 weeks ago and said that they wanted me back to fill the 2nd shift receptionist from 11:30-8. These hours are almost wonderful!! I love not having to get up so early. But I don’t like getting off so late. I feel like I have no time to do anything at all. Just go home take a bath and relax for a few. Then it’s off to bed I go!!! Not to mention that from 6-8 this phone might ring once if I’m lucky! I forgot just how boring it is to be a receptionist. Moving from Marketing, where I was doing something all day everyday, to Receptionist where I answer the phone and sort the mail. Woot.

Anyways, that’s about all I have for right now. If I think of something else I’ll post it!!

I'm Back!!!

2005-07-18T18:37:34Z

Yeah I've been away for a while. There is a lot of entries to catch up on. So, I'm not going to read them all. I'm just going to start from today. Hehehe I finally got a job. I'm working at the same exact place that I got laid off from. My old roommate (Nicole) moved out. Now my bestfriend, Tasha, is my roommate. Things are going pretty good...a little rocky at times...but I know that we can get through it. Over the past 7 months I've lost about 40 lbs. I wasn't even trying at all. It just kinda happened. Anyways, that's really all that's new. Oh and I got a new cell number so if you need it let me know and I will give it to you.

Life or Meth?

2005-02-17T02:32:41Z

If my 'glamorous' lifestyle
Is appealing to you. . .
And you want to try me
Because you've 'nothing to lose'. . .
Then, let me give you
A bit of advice:
You are a fool. . .
And you'd better think twice.

I destroy homes.
I tear families apart.
I take your children.
And that's just the start.
I'm more valued than diamonds.
More precious than gold.
The sorrow I bring
is a sight to behold.

If you need me, remember;
I'm easily found.
I live all around you.
In school and in town.
I live with the rich.
I live with the poor.
I live just down the road.
And maybe next door.

I'm made in a lab, but
Not in one like you think.
I can be made under your kitchen sink.
Or in your child's closet
And even out in the woods.
If this scares you to death
It certainly should.

I have many names
But there's one you'll know best.
I'm sure you've heard of me.
My name's Crystal Meth.
My power is awesome.
Try me you'll see.
But if you do
You may never break free.

Just try me once
And I might let you go.
But if you try me twice
then I own your soul.
When I posses you
You'll steal and lie.
You'll do what you have to
Just to get high.

The crimes you'll commit
For my narcotic charms
Will be worth the pleasure
You'll feel in my arms.
You'll lie to your mother.
You'll steal from your dad.
When you see their tears
You must not feel sad.

Just forget your morals
And how you were raised.
I'll be your conscious.
I'll teach you my ways.
I take kids from their parents.
I take parents from kids.
I turn people from God.
I separate friends.

I'll take everything from you;
Even your good looks and your pride.
I'll be with you always.
Right here by your side.
You'll give up everything;
Your family, your home
Your money, your friends.
You'll be all alone.

I'll take and I'll take
'Til you've no more to give.
When I'm finished with you
You'll be lucky to live.
If you try me be warned:
THIS IS NOT A GAME.
If I'm given the chance
I'll drive you insane.

I'll ravage your body.
I'll control your mind.
I'll own you completely.
Your soul will be mine.
The nightmares I'll give you
When your lying in bed....
And the voices you'll hear
From inside your head....

The sweats, the shakes
And the visions you'll see....
I want you to know:
These are your gifts from me.
By then it's to late
And you'll know in your heart
That you are now mine
And we shall not part.

You'll regret that you tried me.
(They always do.)
Remember; you came to me.
Not I, to you.
You knew this would happen.
How many times were you told?
But you challenged my power.
You chose to be bold.

You could have said "No"
Then walked away.
If you could live that day over
Now, what would you say?
My power is awesome
As I told you before.
I can take your mother
And turn her into a whore.

Go ahead and curse me
With every breath.
Just make your choice:
Will it be life or meth?
You will take unknown paths
On your journey through life.
Some will bring happiness.
Some will bring strife.

But, my path is one
You must not ever cross.
Although it's well trodden
Countless lives have been lost.
Now that you've met me
What will you do?
Will you try me or not?
It's all up to you.

I can show you more misery
Than words can tell
Come, take my hand.
Let me lead you to Hell.

No I am not on drugs! So, don't worry. But I know a lot of people that are on this drug and it worries me. I was in this same boat a couple of years ago but I got out of it with no problem. I wasn't as bad as some but it was getting there. One of my very very close friends is kind of struggling with this problem. And this poem is very true. She has pretty much lost her family and everything. She has 3 beautiful boys and they all got taken away from her. I was hoping it would be a wake up call for her. And for a minute it was. She has been staying with me and I've been trying to help her through this. Helping her get her kids back and get back on her feet. I'd like to think that I have been doing a good job. One of her friends got killed last week. So, for the past 2 days she has been with her other "friends" or whatever you want to call them. And I'm just afraid she is going to get back on that shit again. I'd really like to think that she isn't. I don't know. I'm just really worried about her.

insert loud Traci scream here

2004-12-08T16:08:19Z

Ok so I don't even know where to start with this post. I started at 9:33 and it's now 10:51 and this is as far as I've gotten. Partly because I am busy but mostly because I just can't think of how to start. I get started and then erase everything. Things are just so crappy for me lately. I thought that getting out on my own and stuff was going to be so great. Which it is. But I just can't seem to manage my money to save my freakin life! Now here comes Christmas. And it wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have 20 freakin people to buy for. And that's not even including my friends. That's just family. That is the only downside to having a big family. Too many birthdays and too many people to buy for at Christmas time. It's like once I get my money right...something comes along and fucks it up. UGH! It's annoying.

Then there's the situation with stupid guys. I think I need to leave them all alone and just think about myself from here on out. They do nothing but stress me out. I'm not talking about my guy friends. They're all great! I'm still talking to my EX like an idiot. That just does nothing but cause problems but I can't seem to let his stupid ass go. I wish I could. I am sure I could if I just put my mind to it but I love that boy so much it's sickening! There is this guy that I met at a restaraunt (he waited on us) and it's like he WAS into me but then all of a sudden he's not. I'm like whatever! Then there's this one that I've known for a while. We dated a while back. Then we started talking again and we hung out one night and we talked for a while after that and it's just weird. I don't know. I just need to say fuck all men that I am interested in. Maybe I'll become a lesbian.

I'm just extra fuckin irritated lately.

And I thought I was 100%

2004-11-23T14:01:31Z

You are 89% Bisexual

How bisexual are you?
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